Here we go again: Fighting this day by day

Right now I'm sitting here while pulling my hair but tonight I;m putting an end to this.
In an hour I will shave my hair ( again). That will give me a few weeks of non pulling ( and also lots of compassion looks from people).
Tomorrow morning I will clean my room from the thousands of hairs on the floor, I will look at the mirror and I will have to get used to shaved me. tomorrow, again, I will have hopes and I will try to star a new chapter, tomorrow morning I'm going to try my best again and I would like your help.
One of the things standing on my way while fighting thsi thing is the fact that I don't share my feelings, and so when I have something to say- instead of talking I pull. So maybe now, when I have a place to share my feelings ( thank god for Internet anonymity) it would be easier, maybe knowing that someone reads what i say will help me have less pressure.. and maybe not.. but I'm willing to give it a try.
By reading you will help me be committed to my goal, I will have to admit when i pull, I will have to be honest and try my best because I will know that someone is reading and maybe holding his/her fingers crossed for me.
So I would like to welcome you to this adventure, I can't promise it will have a happy end but I can promise that I will do my best to make it work to not disappoint myself this time.
So wish me luck and If you don't mind.. I will stop typing now and go find my hair cut machine..
See you soon....
ME